Today I feel healthy.

and I am trying to really absorb the feeling. My allergies are at bay (thanks to allegra), I have no real lingering aches, pains or issues. I don't feel bloated, fat, or fatigued. My skin is exposed to the cool air this morning and it tingles with the goosebumps that are rising from the morning breeze. My lungs and sinuses are clear, my stomach is full but not disdended from my breakfast (eng muff with pb and coffee) and I can honestly say that today I feel comfortable in my body.

I feel good.

I feel healthy.

I feel fit.

And damnit if it doesn't make me worry!

Maybe I'm not pushing hard enough... shouldn't I be sore? Maybe I'm eating too much... shouldn't I be hungry? Maybe there is some unknown disease, tumor, allergy, infection just waiting in the wings for me to let down my guard so it can pop its nasty head out if its cave and really screw with my day/week/month/life...

and maybe there isn't... and maybe I am pushing hard enough but my body is getting stronger and is able to recover more quickly... and maybe I am not eating too much and my stomach is actually shrinking so I don't NEED to eat as much to feel full...

and maybe I should quit my bitchin, and just ENJOY feeling good... and take advantage of not being sore by going to the park with my kids this weekend... and stop worrying about what might happen tomorrow and just enjoy my healthy fit feelings today...

I'll give it a shot.

Oh... and happy April Fools... try not to be a sucker. ;)

Posted by Lexy at April 1, 2004 07:36 AM