Tooting my own horn

I'm pretty proud of myself this week. On Monday I traveled from Paris to Portland, took one day to recover, and worked out Wednesday, Thursday and Friday (and am going to run 4 miles tomorrow). I didn't gain any weight on my vacation. I cooked a nutritious, healthy dinner that BOTH MY KIDS ATE (this alone is a miracle) on both Wednesday and Thursday nights. I have had renewed energy at work and have been really getting things accomplished... And today, at the gym, I had a breakthrough. It probably isn't that big of a deal, but... Well... I took off my shirt.

It wasn't something I'd planned... Like, "ok, today I'll wear these shorts and that sports-bra to workout... La de da..." I actually wore a long sleeved running shirt (very breathable, lightweight) over my sports-bra. It was the only clean gym top I had as my T-shirt collection has grown too big and rather ratty, and I figured it would be fine... But today was intervals... For 35 minutes on the elliptical and by minute 8 I was dyeing of heat... I had to take the shirt off or I was going to over-heat and pass out. So I did. For the first time (that I can remember) I did the remainder of my workout in bike-shorts and a sports bra... And was almost comfortable... But not completely.

I don't know if I'll ever be completely un-selfconscious about my belly with its myriad of stretchmarks and scarred belly button from the piercing it used to sport. The stretched skin there may never completely firm up into the 6-pack abs I'd love for it to display. Its been dammaged by life and by producing life, and while mentally that's perfectly ok in my head... sometimes that just doesn't translate into complete comfort with it's public display. ah well.

For now it's coffee and banana time, and next week I'll be back to logging food in fit-day and hopefully on April 3rd (I think that's the date) I'll have at LEAST a 1" loss around my butt to contribute to Kat's Birthday Butt Challenge Totals!

Posted by Lexy at March 26, 2004 07:31 AM