fuck

fuck fuck fuck fuck

fuck

fuck fuck fuck

25%

still 25 fucking %. Now granted there has been some "recovery" from my wedding and the holidays and such... but COME THE FUCK ON!!! I FEEL leaner, I am stronger... I need a SERIOUS mental adjustment right now and I'm not sure how to go about getting it. I gained all of .7lb of lean and dropped a measely .25% body fat. lovely.

I lamented to Alissa after the test.

She said somthing to the effect of, "look... you CAN get lean and strong at the same time... its just easier to do one or the other separately and then switch focus as things progress. Maybe you need to switch focus for a while to lean out so you can SEE your results on your body rather than just feeling them with the strength you're gaining." (which I am and which I do notice) FUCK!!! She is right tho... I am getting depressed and annoyed because the scale hasn't moved in months... hell I can't even get back to my pre-christmas weight... and measurements aren't changing and... and... and... well I'm frustrated. I'm getting angry at my body (why does it refuse to move past this set point???) and I SO want to be lean. Getting lean means a LOT of discipline when you're at this stage. Getting lean means a lot of cardio and circuit training. I don't want my life to revolve around getting lean... but I don't know what I have to do to make this happen.

So Alissa wants to change things up for me, refocus me toward getting the visual results I want before we refocus on strength. I need to spend some time this weekend really figuring out what my motivations are and what I'm willing to do to get to my goals... I need to be re-inspired... I need somthing.

anyone got some of that they can spare?

Posted by Lexy at March 11, 2004 10:50 AM