peaks and valleys

and no, I'm not talking about breasts.

seriously tho... I've really tried to deny the fact that my cycles affect my workouts/eating. I've spent a lot of effort convincing myself that it isn't so and that it shouldn't be so and that if I'm really strong and really consistant my cycles won't make one lick of difference in my workouts and dedication to health. It has been working. To a point.

This last weekend was emotional binge weekend from hell. Cocooning with food, hunkering down on the couch and gobbling up anything in my sight. Take a wild guess what this week is?

So out of curiosity I went back thru the archives and looked for my down posts... the "my god I'm so tired, I can't believe I ate that, I don't feel like doing anything" posts... and I compared them to my calender. (que enlightening muscial score here) I'm such a dumbass. I was/am so very wrong.

I know the mind is a powerful thing... but so are hormone fluctuations... and while I can control my mind to a degree, I've got no freakin' idea how to make those hormonal peaks and valleys level off. So I've been spending a year and a half getting pissed off for what I've convinced myself are bad weeks or weekends with no logical reasoning behind them. I've beat myself up (internally) about why the hell I can't just stay in control for a whole freaking month at a time. Well fuck it I say. It's fucking PMS and I'm going to deal with it right fucking now.

Hello hormones, it's the brain talking now. I understand that on a pretty regular monthly cycle you will be waxing and waning just as the moon and I've decided that the only way I'm going to be able to deal with that in my pursuit of fitness is to go with it as much as possible and just deal with it on the other side of the phase. I know you think I need to be prepped to get preggers every month, but honestly there ain't no way in hell that's gonna be happening for a good long while, so we're gonna focus, you and me, on finding things that satisfy your cravings and need for cocooning and nesting while you're freaking me out emotionally that will do the least dammage to my overall goals. Deal? Great.

Only had time for about 20 minutes of cardio this morning so I did 5 on the rower and 15 on the treadmill (I even ran a third of a mile at 6mph). Then did my stretching a couple of sets of crunches till I could do no more and hit the showers. The plan is for Alissa and I to do some weights this afternoon if she's feeling better... if not, I'm already off 3.5 of the 4 lbs of bloat I accumulated this weekend, so I'll just do some more cardio or somthing.

Posted by Lexy at March 2, 2004 07:22 AM