Reckoning

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Depending on where you're measuring from that is a gain of 7-10lbs in the last 3 weeks. And no, I am not PMSing... its real weight, in all of its many glorious forms (some of which I hope are new muscle fibres since I certainly haven't been slacking completely on the exercise front... just taking it a bit easier than my normal gung-ho state of being).

So as I mentally deal with my day of reckoning... and the numbers I've created for myself, let me throw a little warning out to the kiddies/homies/peeps/whateverthefuck we all are. Here it is: tater tots add up, chickens... as do warm brownie sundaes, french fries, double bacon cheeseburgers with mayo, hasbrowns, fried eggs, lack of water, cheese, mocha-frappuchinos, ice-cream, sorbet, frozen custard, Chicken Wings, Nachos, Guacamole, pasta, beer, wine, cheese filled tater-tots... (notice the marked lack of anything fruit or vegitable like in there (other than the frozen potato products that the "frozen potato products institute" would have you, and the FDA, believe are actually "fresh vegitables"))... etc... etc... etc.

What I'm hoping is that with the pretty much constant caloric restriction I've put myself thru for the last 18 months and the closeness of my body-fat goal, I've put my metabolism into a reactive conservation state (I don't like the word starvation because I do not live in Sub-Saharan Affrica or any other of the HUNDREDS of underprivelged areas of our vast globe, and I do not have to subsist on 0-200 calories per day). My hope is that some of the gluttony of the past three weeks may actually have been useful for my body... maybe it took some of those extra Tens of thousands of calories and did somthing useful with them... building new muscle fibres, re-inforcing the glycogen stores... maybe, just maybe... now that I'm changing things up (again) the fat will be a tad easier to say goodbye to. But when you analyze the total nutritional content of my diet over the last 3 weeks... you may discover that I was woefully lacking in the many many many nutrients necessary for the healthy functioning of the body, so I'm not overly optimistic.

We shall see.

Oh and Jim - fuck right the hell off. (said in the kindest and sweetest way possible). I am quite aware that I am not a fucking number... and I know your "warnings" come from the heart... but baby... this is my game now... and I'm ready to re-write the rules as they suit me. *kisses*

Everyone else - you are fabuolus and I love love love you all! Thanks again for dealing with my potty-mouth and all this shit.

Edited to add: Oh yeah... status on my steps:
1. No dishes were on the counter/sink when I went to bed last night except for our popcorn bowl and my wine glass and it felt pretty durned good.
2. Diet has been spot-on so far (check fit day)
3. Boot Camp - DONE!
4. Conversed with hubby on the merits of new front brake pads, and praised his research of the subject.
5. Browsed the Birthingway website and course-listing to get a feel for what I'm really geting into... printed out registration form for their, "So you want to be a midwife" seminar in August.

Posted by Lexy at June 21, 2004 01:49 PM