Feelin Groovy

So I didn't clean the dishes up last night... I did get up and do them this morning, so that was good. I decided to prioritize relaxation for one day this week over the dishes and surprisingly I only thought about it briefly before I crawled in bed around 11:30 and I was out before my head hit the pillow anyway so there must not have been too much stress associated with them at that point.

I did not, however, get up to swim this morning... did I happen to mention that I went to bed around 11:30... yeah, sleep won out over swimming today, but it will be made up for tomorrow with no hesitation.

Tomorrow my kindergartener becomes a first grader... whoah. I know he's ready academically... socially is another question... but I know he'll be ok. TKD is helping his confidence a lot... its weird to have my baby growing up... I'm not ready for it, even tho he is... *sigh*

And while I don't want to make a big deal of it, I am turning 30 this year... in just over a month, in fact, and I didn't think it would freak me out, but I think it is. Oh I try to deny it outwardly, but subconsciously, inside... it's there. The questions... "what have you really done that's made a difference?" "are you going to keep your promise to yourself that you'd get out of this industry when you're 30?" "are you really ready to shut the door on having more children like you said you would at 30?" It's rediculous, I know... welcome to my world.

Status on my Steps:
1. Did dishes this morning, feel at peace with it.
2. Diet is CLEAN today (hooray for protein powder!)
3. Ran 4 miles with Alissa today (thank GOD for her keeping me motivated or I would have walked at the 2.5 mile mark!)
4. Snuggled on the couch for a good long while with the hubby... praised him for figuring out why the mini was vibrating at highway speeds (unballanced tire).
5. No word from BW yet. Spent some time reading wonderful homebirth stories and happy successful nursing stories.

Posted by Lexy at June 24, 2004 01:52 PM