July 12, 2004
UGH
I am gaining again.
The 8s don't fit anymore.
What the hell is wrong with me? I am the only one in control of what goes in my body and I'm pissing myself off with the choices I'm making these days... and it's not that I'm eating a lot of crap food... the VAST majority of the calories I consume come from pretty damned clean sources... its just that I'm eating SO FREAKIN MUCH... like I got a taste of the whole-wheat pasta, 4% ground beef and spaghetti sauce caserole (with a bit of motzarella on top) that I made for dinner (all in all a very healthy meal) and I just couldn't stop. I could have eaten 1 serving... a cup... or even 1.5 cups and been fine... but no... I had 3... and I could have shoveled more into my face too.
GOD DAMNIT! I am so fucking sick of this. I'm ready to go to a nutritionist and say, here... this is my goal (<20% body fat) tell me what the hell I'm supposed to eat every single day for the next 4 months... and I will do it. What EVER you say (except canned tuna because I simply can't stomach cat-food)...
Maybe Linn can help me.
FUCK this is frustrating, expect BAD things from the scale tomorrow... I do.
Posted by Lexy at July 12, 2004 09:33 PM
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Well, a nutritionist would be handy, but I doubt that it's necessary. Let the combined intellect of your readership know your desired calorie count and macronutrient breakdown, and we'll build you something. From what I recall, you do great at breakfast and work, and just need to get ahold of your evenings....is that about right? And do you want a steady-state diet, or a six-weeker, or what?
Damn that 4% beef is good stuff. I make a faux meatloaf with it, just throwing in chopped garlic, green onions and crushed red pepper....
Posted by: Jim (a.k.a. the Mighty Slug of Thunder) on 07/13/04 @ 08:06 AM
Hey Rachel...
yeah, I know you're right... I've given the same wake up call to several people myself... it just sucks when you realize you've been the ass-kicker for a long time and realize that you've finally gotten to the point where you need someone to help kick your ass for you too. I've been tryin' to do this alone for a long time... not that the help/support I get here is not valuable, it just isn't enough right now I guess.
Thanks for the ass-kickin. I need it.
Posted by: brenna on 07/13/04 @ 09:45 AM
LOL. I am SO with you on the tuna. In fact that's exactly how I described it to a friend the other day ... that stuff will not never nohow knowingly pass my lips as long as I walk this planet.
as to the dietician, you have to be your own. Why would another person telling you what to eat be any different to you telling yourself? Come on Brenna, you know better than to abdicate responsibility in this way. you have the power! you and only you! sorry for the tough love but that's how the whey protein muffin crumbles, chicka. Suck it up :)
Posted by: rachel on 07/13/04 @ 01:19 AM