Brenna,
I have been enjoying your journal for several months now, because you are real and you do share what's going on in your life. Life is that balance...I personally can't separate what I eat and when/how I work out from what happened today or this week, because they are linked. For you, writing about the details of your life helps you see the linkages. For me, reading your journal and knowing a few tidbits of your life helps me recognize linkages in my own eating and other habits. Above all, you're an inspiration because you keep going for it even when you have a lot of other distractions/disruptions/frustrations. I appreciate what you share. For what it's worth, that's my perspective! I think you're great.

I think ScriptyGoddess.com has some scripts that will allow you to set certain posts to restricted, then you can get it out, but know exactly who is reading. You need MovableType (which you have) and PHP (server side scripting language) available to do it. I know what you mean, though. This is a great space to connect with people, and with all you've done and gone through on your physical transformation, it seems restrictive to not connect with those people when you're entering into a new non-physical transformation.

Here's to our ever-evolving (even if not always happy) selves.

Hugs to you.

I don't even know you, and I don't understand why you think you have to censor yourself... did your husband read what you wrote and get upset? someone give you a hard time? Girl, do your thing! You are impacting people's lives by just doing what you do and being public about it. Live boldly and never fear what is inside your self!!

Brenna, I'm confused about what happened too...? That post was great...it was how you felt. Who read it? What happened? I find you a great inspiration and read your blog regularly (several days and then I"ll skip a few while I"m busy). I too am transforming myself and really enjoy your thoughts. I haven't time enough (yet! too many kids and full time work) to learn how to create my own or I would be blogging too. As it is, I write my thoughts out in Fitday journal when I have time. It's great to go back and look at what was going on in your head in the past. I sincerely hope it wasn't a husband thing, but totally understand if it was. Would love to converse by email with you sometime if you have the time. Keep at it girl! Be proud of yourself and don't get too depressed.

Like the others, I don't understand what has you spooked. Your journal should be what YOU want it to be and fuck 'them' right in the ear if 'they' don't like it.

I've dealt with (sort of) the same sitch and I ended up deciding that Id stay true to what I needed the journal for- and sometimes it IS just to vent!!!

Much love.

Brenna,

I missed the entire birthday entry, so I don't know any specifics. But I do know that you must do what is right for YOU. Everyone before me did a better job at explaining the reasons why. And if it makes any difference, it is YOU that made me realize that our "weight loss/fitness/health/self-improvement/etc." journals *SHOULD* contain more than just what we eat and how much we exercise. They should project the entire person and all of the little details, even if it means a vent about something totally unrelated to the immediate topic.

Many hugs coming your way, sweetie!

Brenna,

I've been enjoying your blog for a long time, and it helped inspire me to start my own. I think anyone who has been at this thing for a while knows that getting healthy is about a lot more than how much time you spend on the treadmill or how many carrots you eat.

Its your life - you have to do what is best for you. You don't "owe" crap to any of us that read your blog however much it may help us on our own journey.

Everyone needs a private place - if someone close to you gave you a hard time about what you wrote, then maybe you could ask them to respect your need for a safe place to vent. God knows I've called my husband a dork in my blog a couple of times. Expressing myself in there (sometimes in a childish way) helps me talk about it more calmly at home. And sometimes I realize what I'm so pissed about when I write about it isn't even worth discussing when I get home.

Everyone needs that place / time where they can just dump it all (uncensored) and have a chance to sort through it. You are entitled to that.

I don't have an answer, I hope you can get the situation resolved.

Hugs from a stranger who feels like she isn't one,
Neca