August 31, 2004


no more wire hangers!

and no more daytime running. UGH! What a HORRIBLE run today. It was hot, it was muggy, I felt like a brick with concrete legs trying to run thru jello. Did my four miles and went inside to do some abs and stretching.

The smartest thing I did, tho, was brining some fresh strawberries with me to eat right after I came in from the run... they may well have been the very best strawberries I've ever had ever.

Thank GOD it's supposed to rain tomorrow.

In other news... well... there isn't much other news. I'm still not recording my food, but I really don't feel the need to right now. I'm eating pretty well and keeping track on paper rather than online which right now is just easier to do. I also decided that my 2 miles on wednesday will be done on the precor from now on to protect my knees... I just don't think that running 3 days in a row (even tho the middle day is only 2 miles) is doing me any favors... so that's where its at.

oh, and as a little aside.... ACK!!!! MY BABY STARTS FIRST GRADE IN 6 (that's SIX!!!) DAYS!!!! NO NO NO NO!!!

Ok... must practice letting go... its ok... he will be fine... all will be well... he will succeed... (can you hear me trembling in fear and anticipation???)

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of comment spam and full body workouts

So comment spam is basically the new way to "deliver" spam to unsuspecting people. Basically what happens is a bunch of links to penis-enlargement, casino, online pharmacy, etc... sites show up in your comments pages for old entries. I'm not certain of the delivery method, but I'm sure it's scripted. One nice thing about MT is that when you log into the editer for your blog you can see how many entries you have and how many total comments there are, and see the 5 most recently posted comments and things like that. The problem lies in that I've left all of my comments on all of my old entries open for new comments to be added so now the spammers see them as an easy target. So last night I spent a couple of hours going back thru each entry, deleting the spam comments and closing the comments... it's tedious... I made it thru April of this year... I still have a LOT to do.

As for my full body workout, here is what I did - as much as I can remember:
.5 m warmup on precor
Physio-ball wall squats + bicep curl (8lb dbs) - 3x20
Physio-ball one legged lunges (8lb dbs) - 3x12 each leg
Shoulder press (8lb dbs) - 3x15
Physio-ball fly (8lb dbs) - 3x20
Standing bent over row (8lb dbs) - 3x20
Tricep overhead extension (5lb dbs) - 3x15
Front/Lateral shoulder raise (3lb dbs) 3x20 (only made it to 18 on last set)
Abs - slow bicycle to failure, straight and side crunches on ball (30 each side and 30 center), floor crunches (50), fast bicycle to failure
stretch

I Slept like a LOG last night. It was fabulous except that I woke up with a crick in my lower back this morning and I'm having a hard time getting it to loosen up. Oh well, advil, water and coffee are callin' my name.

3.5 on the agenda for today... no problem!

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August 30, 2004


three mistakes...

I made three mistakes last night. The first was running too late in the evening... the second was not eating when I got back from my run... the third was not realising mistakes one and two until this morning. The first two mistakes combined to make it nearly impossible for me to fall asleep last night. I ended up tossing and turning for several hours (it was past 1 am the last time I looked at the clock) before I finally fell asleep. So when the alarm went off at 5:15 my reaction was somthing to the effect of, "oh HELL no." at which point the alarm was shut off and I went back to sleep until nearly 7am (which is the time I am supposed to be ARRIVING at work... *sigh*). Despite the challenges I just finished my one hour full-body strength training and I feel pretty darned good about it.

I'm kindof excited for this week. My older son is at his dad's house for the whole week (including next weekend) so I only have one rugrat to chase around. I'm thinking I might actually get a few things done! (IMAGINE THAT!) There is plenty to do - there's back-to-school shopping to do, both kids wardrobes need purging, the cat-box is in DIRE condition, and damnit if the livingroom carpet doesnt desperately need to be cleaned again...

Now I must munch on my veggies and investigate this comment spam I seem to bet getting (I knew it would happen eventually... now I just have to deal with it).

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August 29, 2004


I am capable of a lot more...

than I give myself credit for.

6 miles today and I feel great. Ran this evening, air was cool, light breeze... got a little darker than I'm comfortable with at the end, but that's just because the streetlights were so few and far between. I felt like I could have gone another 2 miles easily, and possibly another 3 or 4 with some nutrition and effort.

6.27 miles in 1:03:40 - average pace 10:09 - 752 calories
mile 1 - 9:25 - WHOAH nelly, slow it down a bit lady!
mile 2 - 10:21 - That's better, nice and easy... waved at a couple of kids in their yard.
mile 3 - 10:23 - Nice and consistant, feeling good, lots of traffic tho.
mile 4 - 10:25 - Good good... starting to get a little dark, but hey, here's Allanis to keep me motivated!
mile 5 - 10:21 - Damn I'm consistant... only one lap left, I could keep going for hours... lets push it a bit!
mile 6 - 9:46 - Hell yeah!!! The mile alarm on my Forerunner went off just as I entered my neighborhood... I stopped briefly to look at my stats and then started the timer back up and jogged the rest of the way home.
mile 6.25 - 2:49 - took it easy, waved at the neighbors. pace was 10:39.

My knees are a bit angry at me... I'm icing them and I popped a couple ibuprofen with my first glass of water when I came inside.

I seriously feel like I could have gone another mile or two... Total running milage for this week is 12.75, but it should have been 14.5m. I skipped 3 workouts this week and that pisses me off. I missed mondays weights, the 2 mile run on Wednesday, and my cross-training yesterday, that sucks ass!!! Next week should be fun tho because my goal is to not miss any workouts!!! Here's the plan:

Monday - full body weights (low weight, high rep)
Tuesday - 3.5m (in the morning)
Wednesday - 2m (in the morning) + Yoga
Thursday - 3.5m (in the morning) + Legs/knee strenghtening(squats, lunges, ham curls, etc)
Friday - REST
Saturday - 45 minutes biking
Sunday - 7 miles

Now I need to charge Lauren and Millie (my Forerunner and Mini iPod) to prep for the week... nighty night!

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August 27, 2004


its rest day and I'm antsy

I've been antsy all day.

fidgeting, tapping my foot, checking the clock... feeling like there is somthing I should be doing, am late for, am missing. Its rest day and my body does NOT want to rest.

my brain, on the other hand, is ready for shut down mode. Honestly I am so mentally and emotionally tired today that I'm surprised I am able to remain upright at this point. School starts on the 7th... so do swimming lessons! Val has unfortunately been missing a lot of TKD lately to spend time with his father, which I know is important... but it still bothers me.

Its been a good week tho. Runs were good, I feel good about the 6 miler on Sunday, but any further than that and I think I'm really going to have to evaluate my hydration/energy options. I've never used the "gu" type products, but I suppose its time to give 'em a shot... water and gatorade bottles will probably do me for the 7-9 mile distances... but over that it could get a little dicey.

One thing I really appreciated at the Cascade Classic 10k was that they handed out gummy bears at the water stops and those were AWESOME for a quick hit of sugar. Certainly not the electrolyte boost that a "gu" type product would give, but it worked at the time.

If anyone has any favorite flavors or brands let me know... I'll give some a try in the next few weeks.

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August 26, 2004


3 miles and legs

Decided to stick to the treadmill again today despite the fact that it wasn't raining out. Its nicer to my knees and once again, with a long run on the schedule for Sunday... well... I just want to be nice to my knees as much as possible. They did ache a bit yesterday, probably fromt he lack of padding in the non-running shoes I ran in on Tuesday.

I kept my pace right around 10m/m (6mph) jumping up to 6.2 and 6.5 for some pushes. My iPod kept me company straped firmly, but comfortably, to my arm. After I was done running I went downstairs did some squats, wall-squats on the physio ball, lunges and abs work. My legs were BURNING and I imagine I'll feel it tomorrow.

Dinner last night was FABULOUS, we shared 2 appetizers (4 people) seared bacon wrapped scallops and an heirloom tomato and motzarella salad (YUM to both) then we all shared a caesar salad that was made with whole spears of romaine so we ate it with our fingers! (FUN!) I had wasabi crusted salmon (MELTED in my mouth) and topped it off with coffee and a chocolate torte so rich I could only eat a couple of bites.

I love restaurants in Portland... no matter how "fancy" they are, they are hardly ever pretentious. Ah well, dinner was on the house as we were dining with the owner, and it doesn't get any better than that!

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August 25, 2004


the why

Juju has mentioned that Kat brought up the WHY question while they were on their pannel at Jornalcon.

Why am I doing this? Why are any of us doing this? Why did I end up where I was nearly 2 years ago? Why did I change my mind and change my life? Why did it work and why does it continue to work every day of my life. Why do I want this, why do I feel that I emotionally need this so badly.

I'm gonna spend some time working on the whys this week. When I think I have a better handle on them, I'll definitely share.

Yoga today was fabulous! but right now I am so burnt and tired that all I want is a nap. Oh well, no time for a nap!

later!

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August 24, 2004


FORGOT MY SHOES!!!

I ran in my Salomon Tech Amphibians today... and ya know what? I survived.

I can not believe I forgot my running shoes, but I did. Luckily I was wearing the Amphibians and since it was POURING out we (my friend Jen and I) decided to kick it on the treadmills today and go the distance inside. We had a great time running and talking and it was a good workout. I did slow down to a walk twice due to concerns about rubbing in odd places on my toes, but I decided I was going the distance and kicked it back up to 6mph and continued on. We followed it up with some abs work and stretching and I feel great despite having non-running shoes. I picked it up to 6.5 and 6.6 for the last mile and that always leaves me feeling on top of the world.

I am hoping that as my runs get longer I'll get more of that runners high that comes after a good hard run. The euphoria is a pretty nice lift and seems to last a while after I'm done running as well. Did have some chaffing on the inner thighs this time tho, so I really need to USE that body-glide I bought from now on.

Life is good. Going to dinner at Bluehour tomorrow... should be fabulous!

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August 23, 2004


Frustration!

So just when I felt I was getting into a routine... things at work EXPLODE... so I was up late last night, woke up late this morning, was late to work, have been working with barely a moment to stop and eat, wont' get a noon workout in and MAY be able to squeeze some exercise in before my son's TKD class this evening but I still have to feed him and the littlest one and get them cleaned up and ready to go in the 90 minutes between when I get home from work and when we have to leave for TKD class which leaves me about 1 hour tonight after they're both in bed to maybe possibly get in some stretching and abs work!

All I can say at this point is I'm glad I have a physio ball at home, and calgon-take-me-away!!!

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August 22, 2004


I feel hardcore.

5 miles in the rain done. I even managed some negative splits (can you imagine?) and can I just say I am SO glad I got the armband for my mini i-pod. Music whilst running is awesome! Every time I started to get tired a great song would come on and pick me right back up... and its so easy to skip the songs that are too slow that I didn't even have to try to look at the ipod to do so.

I wore my long tights that are waterproof on the front and my Pints-to-Pasta long-sleeved shirt (half-zip, microfiber, breathable, very nice!) I also wore a baseball cap and sunglasses (even tho there was no sun) to keep the rain out of my eyes. The good thing is that I didn't get cold at all, but I did get drenched. I may need to look at getting some real rain-gear for running since it looks like I may be doing quite a bit of rain-running in the next couple of months. *sigh*

Here's the specifics: 5.0 miles in 52:45
mile 1 - 10:58 (started slow and easy)
mile 2 - 10:56 (not bad since this is the mile that includes the 1 hill on the course)
mile 3 - 10:20 (couple of great songs on this one)
mile 4 - 10:35 (always my toughest mile mentally)
mile 5 - 9:55 (HA! No freakin' way... again the music carried me)

oh and the whole "hardcore" thing is said with tongue firmly in cheek tho I didn't see a single other runner out on the road today. ;)

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August 21, 2004


RAIN!!!

All I can do is laugh.

I am drenched head to toe... completely soaked to the bone.

It started innocently enough. I decided to take the cross-training option today and take the littlest boy for a ride in the bike-trailer for a half an hour... but, well... all I can say is I'm DAMNED glad the trailer has a full cover on it. About 15 minutes out (the apex of the trip) the heavens opened up and pissed rain down uppon us... tho pissed isn't really the best description... I mean, sure the rain was warm so I didn't get cold as I rode my ass off toward home... but the QUANTITY of rain was much more than a little piss... it was more like the air became liquid and I was riding the bike thru a swimming pool.

But it was certainly a fun ride. :D

5 miles tomorrow. I will take Dani's advice (and everyone else... THANKS EVERYONE!) and focus on one week at a time. I've run 5 miles before I will run it tomorrow with no problems. I will not think about next week or any week there-after... the only run I have to complete is the one right in front of me, the next one will work itself out when I get to it.

Time to dry off!

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August 20, 2004


SUSHI? I LOVE SUSHI!!!

I just had a FABULOUS lunch: Miso soup, cucumber salad, Tuna and Salmon Sashimi and a yellow-tail roll... top it off with green tea and I am a happy happy camper.

*sigh*

Sushi makes me high.

I am SORE from yoga... like SERIOUSLY SORE!!! How annoying is that? I think I might have pushed myself a bit too hard, so I think I'll try to lighten up next week. I'm looking forward to my run tomorrow (hooray!) because, brilliant logic master that I am... I realized that with my forerunner I can just take off in ANY direction, run for a mile an a half an then... da da DAH - TURN AROUND and come back! Creating THOUSANDS of possibilities for my shorter weekly runs. GODDAMN I'm a genius sometimes... it baffels even me how I can be so freakin' smart.

;)

IN any case, the plan for this weekend is 3 miles Saturday (cause my bike needs some repairs that I didn't get done this week) and 5 on Sunday... and that will complete my first official week of half-marathon training... but you want to know what REALLY sucks?

I've already started doubting myself... like, how the hell do I expect to pull this off? Am I insane to think I can run 13 miles? I mean come on... I don't even know if I can pull off the 5 I'm supposed to run on Sunday. Where the HELL is all of this self-doubt comming from? Its really annoying, and I tell myself (Repeatedly) that it is rediculous to doubt myself and of COURSE I can do this... it's not even that big a deal. But for some reason this doesn't seem to be helping (I'm good at this self-depretiation stuff... have you noticed?)

So there ya have it... perhaps I should turn in the cape.

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August 19, 2004


boy am I tired

I am glad tomorrow is a full rest day.

I did my 3 miles this morning around 5:30 and again it was lovely. I need to find a nicer route tho as the one I've been running forever is getting pretty boring. It's an out-and-back along a bike path that runs along a pretty major road, so while it's a good safe path (plenty of room between me and cars and good lighting and plenty of spectators) it's also BORING. Saw the great-blue heron again, tho he didn't take off overhead this time... also heard what could have been his/her offspring making some really WILD low, honks from the bushes.

I'm a bit sore from yoga yesterday. It was a great class tho and I've retained more flexibility than I'd thought. My legs were shaking during some of the asanas tho, so I know they're a bit tired. I've run 6 miles so far this week and there are 8 in the plan for this weekend (3 sat, 5 sun). Next week marks a pretty large jump in milage tho as I'll be adding a short 2 miler on wednesday before yoga and the long run on sunday goes up to 6.

I'm thinking I might pick up some glucosamine (to add to all my OTHER supplements) this weekend because while my knees don't hurt now... I imagine they may start in a couple of weeks.

Must remember to stretch after running... legs today are stiff (not sore, just stiff). *sigh*

I suppose I should eat some lunch now, so I'll catch y'all later.

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August 18, 2004


doward dog

Today is yoga. It was supposed to be 2 miles plus yoga... but somehow my running shoes did not make it into my bag, so it will be yoga... and maybe 2 miles later on this evening. I have missed yoga. I definitely will benefit from the stretching and balance that I will be practicing once a week. I just wish I had more time for it... more yoga time... peaceful time... meditative time.

Check out Krista's Rant for August if you haven't already. She's right on the money talking about how we overschedule ours and our childrens' lives. Too many lessons and activities and clubs and such... and its all (most of it) completely unnecessary. What the HELL is wrong with us that we think that we MUST work until 8pm so we can afford some bright and shiny new THING? A thing that will inevitably be obsolete in 2 months (tops) anyway? Freaky it is... but I'm living it. Living in a job I hate with every fiber of my being so that my family can maintain the lifestyle we've built for ourselves. And the best part? Our only real debt is the house and two cars. No credit debt, we save and pay cash for most things... but very little savings either (which scares the crap outta me).

But here I am... plugging away. How am I going to make the whole "quit-work, go back to school" thing work anyway? I am a horrible budget maker/keeper... and I have zero idea how to find good part-time work to help carry us thru the school years (at least 3, but could be up to 5)... *sigh* Maybe my brain will open up and the solution will flow thru it some time in the next year or so... I hope it does, I truly do.

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August 17, 2004


3 miles in the wee hours.

Running this morning was really great... well... everything was great except the hauling my fat ass outta bed at 5:30 in the am. I ran slow and steady, breathing was calm and heart-rate was never above 70% of max. I saw a lot of ducks, several bunny rabbits and one great-blue heron that took off over my head as I was running by. I averaged just over a 10 minute/mile pace. I guess there isn't much interesting to say about running... especially when you're going to be doing so very much of it every week, so I won't bore you with any more.

I think Alissa convinced me to go with a more beginner schedule for the half-marathon training... I think the intermediate schedule would have gotten a bit overwhelming around the mid point. So I've got my calendar mostly set up and I'll try to figure out how to get it posted as a chart that I can use to check off my runs and other workouts on a daily basis. Thanks everyone for all of the information and support in the comments as well... it's been so VALUABLE to me as I move into this completely new area of fitness training.

In other news, I hate shots... I hate even more when my kids get shots. Val HATES shots and luckily today was the very last shot he needs to get until he's 12+ years old. HOORAY! We had to hold him down tho, and that sucked... he screamed, cried, got some stickers and promptly got over it. We've got him ramped up to his full dose of concerta again as well and I thought I'd mention that my hubbys parents were AMAZED at the difference in his behavior with the full dose on board. Honestly it is like night and day. He's NOT zonked out, or sedated at all... he's just more easy-going. Doesn't get freaked out about every little thing... doesn't harass his brother, lets things go more easily... can follow more than one instruction in sequence and will focus on his toys and play for more than 30 seconds at a time... its like he's a normal kid. Don't get me wrong... he'll still throw a tantrum or snag a toy from his brother if he thinks he can get away with it (which he can't)... but otherwise, he's a pretty awesome child.

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August 16, 2004


Boy, when I check out...

I really check out, don't I?

It's monday of week 11 of the count down to the half marathon and according to Hal I should be resting or doing some weights and stretching today... I'm down with that. Got up and came to the gym this morning and did the following:

5 minute warmup on stair-master
20 reps Squat+Shoulder press - 5lb dbs
20 reps Stationary Lunge + Bicep Curl - 8lb dbs (left leg)
20 reps Sationary Lunge + Tricep Press - 8lb dbs (right leg)
(repeat above set, switch legs for lunge combos)
Abs set - 25 double crunch - 20 fast bicycle - 20 slow bicycle
20 reps Rear Fly on ball - 5lb dbs
20 reps Chest Fly on ball - 5lb dbs
(repeat above set)
Abs set - 25 double crunch - 20 fast bicycle - 20 slow bicycle
7 minutes medium level cardio on eliptical

I started easy and I'm glad I did. I feel good, got really sweaty, hated-on my belly flab that has been returning (UGH!) a bit, and successfully resisted the scale.

I'm going to talk to Alissa more today about the milages I need to be putting in for the half-marathon, and I'm looking at the Hal Higdon Intermediate training plan as a good guide. I think I may modify it a bit and skip the fartlek pieces and replace those with cross-training as he does in the beginners training plan. I like the milages better in the intermediate program, but I seriously care not about speed, and am concerned about protecting my knees... so cross training may be more my speed.

As for me and hubby - things are much improved. I am not giving up this blog as a venting area and he understands my need for this type of outlet. I will try to respect his need for privacy by not divulging overmuch the details of what might need venting about, but that's my perogative. Right now it feels ok, we'll see what happens next crisis... because there is always a next crisis... :D

Happy day!

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August 10, 2004


not much to say today

In-laws are here and we're having a good time. We finally finished staining the deck today by doing the railing which is always the hardest to do, and it looks really nice. We had a lot of stain left so we went ahead and stained the split-rail fence we have running down one side of our property. It looks REALLY fabulous now, and I'm happy to think that it won't be fading to grey like normally happens with cedar split rail fences (no one stains them around here).

No formal exercise... still purging... but things have solidified a bit with the next plan.

The next plan is predicated on a goal that is outside of me. I always seem to do better when I have an outside goal to shoot for. When it was running my first 5k, 10k, triathlon, etc... I was able to focus on THAT rather than on my ever present body fat, or weight or whatever... so my next goal (which is really the next logical endurance step for me) is this:

On October 31, 2004 I will be running my very first half-marathon. I will register tomorrow for the Terapin - RUN LIKE HELL half marathon.

I will be meeting with Alissa on monday to work out a training schedule and the milages I'll need to run to get to where I need to be by the end of October. I am excited to have another outside of myself goal (eat that jim... lets see ya catch me now) to work toward and the great thing is that I KNOW that training for this event will ALSO help me lean out (hooray!). I believe I'll be running 3-4 days a week and I want to get in 2 days of high-rep, low weight, full-body strength training as well to hold onto that muscle I've gained over the first half of the year. I won't be weighing until AFTER the marathon. that's right... no scale for 11.5 weeks. I'll go back to logging my food in fitday (I'll be aiming for 1800-2000 HONEST calories per day, and focusing in FUELING my body for endurance... which I'm sorry to say I have VERY little knowledge or experience with so I'm going to need to do a LOT of research on that) on Monday and hopefully start my training that day as well... lots of things happening on Monday, eh?

So there you have it... maybe I'm insane... and I do distinctly remember saying a long time ago that I would NEVER want to run a half or full marathon...

that's what I get for limiting myself.

heh.

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August 09, 2004


You knew I couldn't stay away for long

there's been some talking on the homefront... some progress, no major break-thrus... but there's plenty of time. I'm not going anywhere and neither is he (we're both too stubborn it seems). More on that later.

I've finished the first week of my system cleanse and while I wasn't perfect with the dietary aspects I was pretty damned good. This week I will continue in the same way, hopefully go running tomorrow and thursday and then come Monday the new schedule begins. My plan has been developing slowly over the last few weeks but I need to get the details down on paper. I will be commiting to this new plan for a minimum of 12 weeks. I won't be changing my diet much... balanced protein and carbs, good fats, low calorie... its the plan I've felt the best while on, so I'm sticking with it. Adequate nutrition for intense (5+ days a week) workouts, with no muscle loss (I hope) and lots of fat loss.

Its gorgeous out today. I feel really good... I promise... deep thanks and many hugs to ALL who have offered support and wise words over the last week or so. You are all amazing, and I appreciate you more than I can express.

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August 06, 2004


an explination

I'm very sorry to have left so many of you in the dark, here's what happened on Monday:

Sunday was my birthday, it was crappy and I ended up bawling my eyes out in front of my kids because I was so upset about it.

I vented here.

My husband read it and objected strongly to me airing our issues on such a public forum.

Out of respect for him and our relationship I chose to take the post down.

I am still upset about that and about my birthday sucking so much rancid donkey ass. Things have not been worked out, but I obviously don't have this forum as a safe place to vent my frustrations any longer and thus am feeling very very restricted in my ability to process conflict and deal with it on an emotionally stable and adult level.

I'll be stepping away for a few days to clear my head. Please don't worry too much about me... I'll come out of it stronger, I always do.

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August 05, 2004


*sigh*

The cleanse seems to be working. I'm feeling less bloated and I'm really hoping the pain in my knees and feet starts to lighten up soon. Have done some stretching and such in the evenings... but this cold hanging onto my head, chest, throat etc. has made my exercise motivation fall pretty low.

I'm at a pretty low point in general right now, lower than I've been in a very long time... and I'm feeling like I have lost the one real outlet I had in this blog. If I cant vent here... talk here... get it out, get opinions and support when I need it, I've got nowhere else to turn really. I used to keep paper journals, but those were ruined for me by my ex who decided to read them and then bring it up in our mariage counseling sessions. So now if I can't write it here I don't write it.

And now I can't write it here.

Seems like it would get pretty boring pretty fast if all I wrote about were the details of my workouts and food lists... ugh.

A person getting fit and losing weight is still a whole person with other influences in their lives... relationships, family, work, friends, etc...

so where do I go from here? Make this blog private and only give the password to those I trust? I'm not sure... ideas would be appreciated.

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August 04, 2004


hanging on...

Haven't been to the gym this week... won't be going today... maybe not tomorrow either... we'll see. Pain in the legs still abounds but is abating slowly.

Removing my post from Monday doesn't change the fact that Sunday sucked and was my worst birthday ever.

Now I have some sort of head-cold thing building, so I'm pounding the herbal tea. One thing I am VERY proud of is that despite feeling like emotional crap the last few days I have started my cleanse and detox and have stuck to it!

Last night for dinner I really wanted pizza... instead I had greenbeans... LOTS AND LOTS of fresh organic greenbeans. I steamed them for about 3-4 mintues and then sauteed them in olive oil, garlic, salt and peper and ate them all... at least 3/4 of a pound of 'em... so while that was probably a LOT more than I needed to eat, at least it was healthy whole food and not processed crap.

small victories, right?

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August 03, 2004


10k Results are FINALLY up!

my time is almost exactly what the GPS said... but I'm sticking with the pace/distance the GPS gave me because and extra half mile... is an EXTRA half mile, damnit!

I placed 13th of 26 in my age group of 24-29 year old women (dead center) but if I'd been racing 2 days later (Hypothetically putting me into the 30-34 category) I'd have placed 9th of 21... DAMN! I also placed 107 out of 241 total runners, so that's not to shabby either. Top half of the class in both categories.

Name, location, bib number, sex, age, time, pace, age group rank, overall rank

13. Brenna Palmer Vancouver, WA 2536 F 29 1:00:32 9:45 13 / 26 107 / 241

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some of you may have noticed...

that I have chosen to remove yesterday's post.

I am not sure where to go from here with this forum... I do not like censoring myself, but I do understand why it might be necessary in some cases.

hopefully I can work this out.

For now my postings may be more sparse and will definitely stick to the topics at hand... nutrition, lifting, etc.

take care, all.

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